Monday, April 6, 2009

A decison to make

I dreaded going to the Vet this morning. I took Sassy with me. I met with the Vet and he went over the results with me. Her kidneys are normal, liver normal, white blood count is high probably due to her cold or maybe a bad tooth, all the other tests seem to be pretty normal too. He thinks it is her heart, not pumping enough to circulate thru her body. He can give her an antibiotic for the infection, he can give her meds for the epilepsy/ seizures but can't fix her heart. I have to look at her quality of life and she basically has none. She wants to be in my arms all the time, the tech said it was the comfort I give her. The vet said I have to think about my quality of life too. I could spend oodles of money and still not be able to make her well, like the former Sassy. I have a big decision to make and know what I need to do. This should be cut and dried. I shouldn't have to think about it, she is suffering but not in pain. I just love that little dog so much! I'm still praying she will go without the vet's intervention. I don't want her to die in a stranger's hands. I'm going to ask if I can hold her while he administers the dose. Some vets don't allow this. Maybe I'm not strong enough for that either.


Nancy and the fatties said...

I'm so sorry, Becky. I lost my baby girl Winnie Wiggles last year and it feels like yesterday. my heart goes out to you.

Neas Nuttiness said...

Becky - I am so sorry. I know that this is soooooooooo hard for you. I really really do. I'll call!

A Tail of 2 Doggies said...

We feel so bad about Sassy. We know that whatever you do, it will be the right thing. We are sending you all, lots of good vibes and doggie wishes!

Marni said...

Oh man... that is tough. I am so sorry you are having to go through this! Big, big, big hugs!

Pearl said...

Oh Becky, I don't have any words for you. Just hugs and prayers.

I hope you find peace with your decision, whatever it may be. We are all here.

Jientje said...

I know. This is hard. It's been years ago, but I remember like it was yesterday. My Siamese cat was seventeen and a half years old. She had kidney problems, and we had spent a lot of money to try and make her better. When she returned from the clinic, she never was the same again. I had to put her on a diet but she would not eat it. I then decided to give her anything she wanted, and spoil her rotten,the remaining time we had left. One month later, she was as bad as she was when we took her to the clinic the first time. I could see all she wanted was to let go of life and die. So I called the vet, and asked her to come and give her the ultimate care. I was glad it could be done at home, and that I did not have to put her on a cold steel vet's practise table. We cried our hearts out, but it was the best thing we could do for her. I know it'll hurt, and you're probably crying as you read this.But if this happens to the one I have now, I'll do the same thing. Hugs dear. xxx

Tatersmama said...

{{{{{Awwwww Becky!!}}}}}
Honey, I'm so sorry for your heartbreak and I truly understand how hard this is for you.
I would hope that the vet would allow Sassy would be in your arms - because that's exactly where she would want to be, when the time comes.
I'm praying that it doesn't come to that though.

Honey, you're both in my thoughts and prayers, so just remember... whatever happens we're here for you.
*gentle, loving hugs*

Robynn's Ravings said...

Becky.....I hate that you have to walk through this. It's the part of life with our pets we all back burner and NEVER hope to face, knowing all the while we will.

I will pray that she passes in her sleep. I'm so glad you have had the love together you've had and what a testament to your love for her that she wants to be where she feels most comforted - in your arms. I hope the vet lets you come in with her, if it comes to that. You won't regret it. It's the ultimate last gift we can give them after all they've given us.

Prayers and hugs for you.


Mountain Woman said...

What an awful situation for you. You and Sassy are in my thoughts and prayers.

Andrea said...

Oh Becky...I'm so sorry that you are going through this difficult time. Sassy will let you know and I know you will make the right decision. I've often said that this is when we are animals greatest champions...when we have to make these hard, tough choices. You are in my thoughts.